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March 2nd, 2012

I feel like such a disgusting, dirty person. I'm clean and relatively healthy, but I feel like you'd never know it. I have BO even with deodorant, my hair is frizzy and always looks bad, and my skin has clogged pores, pimples, and dark marks even though I follow a really good skincare routine. Clothes often don't hang right on my body because I'm petite but top-heavy. I try so hard to be presentable, and I look and smell like a pig anyway.

February 29th, 2012

I see models on websites like forever21 and it makes me hate my body because they are so skinny and I would never be able to know how the clothes look on me because I look nothing like those girls. I'm average sized, but I feel like I'm obese when I see those pictures.

February 20th, 2012

I am a recovering anorexic. Some days I don't mind my body and cherish its strength. I admire how much it can do for me. But on other days I look at my body in disgust, looking at my thighs triggers me to attack the rest of my body. It makes me so depressed and guilty to think that I do this to my body. I think that other people are judging me for my looks and think I am a fat ugly failure that deserves nothing. I am looking to accept myself in all ways, but this seems to be the biggest insecurity I still possess.

February 19th, 2012

Most days I don't think about my arms because they're not fat-fat, but they have a lot of flab. As in, no muscle (gross image, I know). I hate that running can't work biceps.

February 19th, 2012

My sisters have a special bond because they're both recovering from eating disorders. They sometimes treat me like I don't understand. That's fine...I'd rather them think that I'm okay than have them know how much I really do understand.

February 15th, 2012

I hate my body and I am to weak and pathetic to commit to changing it.

February 15th, 2012

I hate my body and I am to weak and pathetic to commit to changing it.

February 13th, 2012

I'm unusually petite for a biracial girl. I get frustrated when all of my fave clothes get baggy. Even though I wear glasses, I'm still self-conscious about looking nice. Geek girls like fashion too, dammit!!

February 12th, 2012

I am size 8 and slim. I still have cellulite, which makes me feel fat and disgusting. Its not about size or shape, its about how you feel and think about your body, hoping i can change that...

February 12th, 2012

I feel like I have a reverse body image... I look in the mirror and I see someone who is pretty and in good proportions...then I see a photo of me with friends and I see an ugly hag with huge bingo wings and big fat thighs. Sometimes I really want to see how I look through other peoples eyes and that then I will know exactly how I appear. I havent allowed anyone to take a photo of me in years.

ABOUT

Although my book, SKINNY, is a work of fiction, writing hundreds of pages about my characters' body image issues forced me to face my own body image issues. Without intending to, I gave myself an invaluable gift: Voicing my shame relieved some of it. Now I'm giving that gift to you.

So go ahead. Confess.