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February 20th, 2012

I am a recovering anorexic. Some days I don't mind my body and cherish its strength. I admire how much it can do for me. But on other days I look at my body in disgust, looking at my thighs triggers me to attack the rest of my body. It makes me so depressed and guilty to think that I do this to my body. I think that other people are judging me for my looks and think I am a fat ugly failure that deserves nothing. I am looking to accept myself in all ways, but this seems to be the biggest insecurity I still possess.

February 19th, 2012

Most days I don't think about my arms because they're not fat-fat, but they have a lot of flab. As in, no muscle (gross image, I know). I hate that running can't work biceps.

February 19th, 2012

My sisters have a special bond because they're both recovering from eating disorders. They sometimes treat me like I don't understand. That's fine...I'd rather them think that I'm okay than have them know how much I really do understand.

February 15th, 2012

I hate my body and I am to weak and pathetic to commit to changing it.

February 15th, 2012

I hate my body and I am to weak and pathetic to commit to changing it.

February 13th, 2012

I'm unusually petite for a biracial girl. I get frustrated when all of my fave clothes get baggy. Even though I wear glasses, I'm still self-conscious about looking nice. Geek girls like fashion too, dammit!!

February 12th, 2012

I am size 8 and slim. I still have cellulite, which makes me feel fat and disgusting. Its not about size or shape, its about how you feel and think about your body, hoping i can change that...

February 12th, 2012

I feel like I have a reverse body image... I look in the mirror and I see someone who is pretty and in good proportions...then I see a photo of me with friends and I see an ugly hag with huge bingo wings and big fat thighs. Sometimes I really want to see how I look through other peoples eyes and that then I will know exactly how I appear. I havent allowed anyone to take a photo of me in years.

February 8th, 2012

My nose has a HUGE bony bump on it. It's a classic "roman nose." Haaaaaate it. And it's not small either. I've seen girls with the same nose shape that look just fine, but their noses are tiny, unlike mine.

February 3rd, 2012

Sometimes I feel great because I rebel against the the media trying to make EVERYONE feel like they need to be skinny. Most of the time, though, I just feel really fat. The worst part is I'm a size 2, and I still feel fat.

ABOUT

Although my book, SKINNY, is a work of fiction, writing hundreds of pages about my characters' body image issues forced me to face my own body image issues. Without intending to, I gave myself an invaluable gift: Voicing my shame relieved some of it. Now I'm giving that gift to you.

So go ahead. Confess.